| "MY MIND GROWS HEAVY AT THE BURDEN OF MY DARK LIFE....AND ITS DEEPER THAN I ....OH...WHY MUST I...OH FORGET IT!! REALLY, NOW, HAVE YOU EVER FOUND YOURSELF CATERING TO YOUR OWN NEGATIVE PHASE? AS GENUINE AS AN UGLY EMOTION MAY BE, IT INEVITABLY, MUST PASS,OR BE FED BY THE NEED TO SUSTAIN THE LITTLE ACT. THERE IS QUITE A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HONESTY BEING UNDER SOME CLOUD OR NETHER EMOTION, AND MAKING A PERSONAL STYLE OUT OF AN APPALING THEATRICAL DEPRESSION. ITS RATHER LIKE SOMEONE SCREAMING IN TORMENT ABOUT THEIR LOOSE BOWEL CONDITON, AND THEN UPON RECOVERING FROM THIS DISCOMFORT PROCEEDSTO INJEST COPIUS AMOUNTS OF A LAXATIVES TO EXTEND THE MOMENT. NOW, IF THIS WERE JUST SOME PERSONAL FETISH IT WOULD BE FINE(SORT OF), BUT AS A MEANS OF GETTING ATTENTION IT IS SOMEWHAT BOTHERSOME. CURRENTLY, I HAVE NOTHING TO BE PARTICULARLY UPSET ABOUT. I TEND TO BE MORE CONSUMED BY THE LESS TANGIBLE INCHES IN LIFE, SUCH AS THE EVER CLASSIC QUESTIONSOF MORTALITY, AND OTHER SUCH FUN (ITS SUCH A FINE WAY TO MAKE OTHER, MORE MUNDANE PROBLEMS SEEM SO TRIVIAL.) BUT PEOPLE OR SO EAGER TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH ABOUT EVEN THE MYSTERIES OF THIS LIFE,THAT THERE IS NO WORLD AFTER THIS ONE, OR THAT THERE IS A PLACE TO GO TO, AND IT JUST BOTHERS ME. I AM AFRAID OF ANYONE WHO FEELS THEY KNOW ANYTHING. BLIND CERTAINTY IS A REPELLANT THING. SO I AM HAPPY JUST TO DRIVE UP SOME WINDING ROAD AND LOOK UP AT WHATEVERS ABOVE ME- STARS, MOON... PURPLE HORSESHOES. BUT IVE GONE OFF ON A TANGENT, HAVENT I? ANYHOW,THERES JUST TIME FOR YOU TO PULL YOURSELF OUT OF THE MUDDY GLOOM THAT SUCKS AT YOUR FEET AND HOLDS YOU UNDER THE DELUSION THAT THIS IS THE ONLY KIND OF ATTENTION THERE IS TO RECIEVE. THERE IS A TIME TO JUST PACK YOUR BAG FULL OF THE DEADLY ARSONAL OF WEAPONS AND JUST SHAKE OFF THE DISMAL ROBE THAT SHROUDS YOU. WELL... PERHAPS YOU SHOULDNT GO ABOUT IT THAT WAY... NO YOU PROBABLY SHOULDNT. BUT YOULL BE SEEING SOMEONE WHO DOES. KIDS DONT DO THIS AT HOME......UNLESS YOUR PLANNING ON BLAMING ME( IN WHICH CASE, GO TO IT. WE NEED MORE THINGS LIKE THIS IN THE NEWS.)" |
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